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My god,
It feels so exhilharating.
The touch, the way you feel
Makes it seem so unreal.
It's here
It's there
And I'm loving every second.
Let me feel on this some more.
Push til its peak
And let it all come undone.
Let it become one.
This experience so unreal
Gives me the greatest feel.
Gasping, perspiration,
It Feels so numb.
Feels so good
And we all feel so bad.
It's so wrong
But it feels so right.
I could do this all night
Yeah,
Let me breathe for a moment.
Savour this before it goes,
So bad and so wrong,
So good and so right.
My god,
What a night.
My god,
You feel so right.
Drag This Life
Drag it on and on
Living this life so hard
Never before to stop and listen
Hear the calls, sit and ponder
Dragging it
All so hard
Opened these eyes
Too dark to see
Not so clearly
Attacked without impunity
To lay here alone
So alone
Dragging myself down some more
Am I alive
Or am I just breathing
Can I hold on anymore
Try to open my eyes once more
So cold to know
That I may never know
Why this had to all happen
Now eyes faintly rising
Glanced upon the sweet sunshine
And layed in the warmth
Layed in rest
To think of all in my past
Now I stood so tall
An emotion in my eyes
Not fear, agony, misery
But understanding
Of what now awaits
In my hard life
I Can't
I thought I was ready
To be there with love
I thought I could try
To give my heart
I said I loved you
Didn't want to break your heart
But I can't hold this inside me forever
I won't let it built up inside me
I don't hate you
Please don't cry
I don't love you
Let me hold you in my arms
I just can't do this
Can't continue with a lie
I'm finishing it quickly
Before any harm is done
I'm sorry
I can't give a good reason
I just don't feel the whay you do
I can't feel the burning love
I can't allow myself to lie
I don't hate you, I dn't love you
I can't hurt you
I don't know what to do
I can't go on
I can't feel this
I can't love in a lie
I can't tell you
I can't be there for you
I'm sorry
I just don't love you
...
Can you just understnad
That we can't be real
I don't want to live a fake
Know this from me
And let me be free
I still hold you in my heart
But alas it can never be
I hope you don't take it hard
It'sjust how some things revolve
Turning but never clicking
Don't let shadows darken your heart
Let peace and love still breathe warmth
I never said we can't be friends
I never wanted all of this
I hope you'll understand
I know it can be hard
To bring all hope on the surface
And see it drown to nothing more
I can't lie to you
I just am not ready for this
I know you'll evetually understand
Inner Conflict
Dreams of awakening
In your soft slumber.
Nights of wandering
Between the twilight.
Whispers of promises
That are all tainted.
Dreams of nightmares
Fill my mind.
Softly feeling
The cold embrace.
Never knowing
What wll begin
And what will never end.
Shadows darkening,
Falling from the light.
From comfort and peace,
To sorrow and misery,
To the evil within.
Felt an urge.
So tempting it was
To let it go.
Feel nothing more
Than peace and solace,
Without pain
Nor suffering.
Just to fall peacefully
Until the end rips everything apart.
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Untitled
The darkness lifted
Now can my eyes focus
On what needs rememberance
To be found what was never lost
And keep it held close
As it tries to be forgotten
And now pray to an unseen hope
Of what I have not yet to stand for
Pray to the darkness to lift the light
Hide away these monsters
Give me a bitter feeling
Of nothing more than nothing else
And believe in a lie
That can not be truth
So to give my soul
The freedom of all mankind
My will to never be possessed
My spirit to never lose its grace
My eyes to never show a single piece
Of the slightest emotion.
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Hopes Held High
My hell has fallen
Heaven seems so far away
My hopes are held high
All ready to sway
I keep my memories close
As to not destroy myself
I know it's never easy
To live with so much choices
And so many more mistakes
All of these endless consequences
I held my head high
To show I'm now okay
I keep my hopes held high
Never letting them sway
I can never forget the night
I thought I threw it all away
The chance has now come
So much to be
So little hope in me
Cause I have it all
Hidden inside
So up high, so out of reach
My hopes are set high
I can never know when I'll die
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Misery
My heart now racing
So many things to say
My mind isn't thinking
Of what I really did
I whispered promises
Just to break them
Made you believe for a moment
That I wasn't scared
That I would keep holding on
But now you
See it so clearly
As the pain crosses me
As you look into my eyes
Sure I'll smile
And say everything is alright
But it's all just a lie
A lie filled with regret
That I can't reveal this misery
Reveal what I try to forget
As it taints my very soul
Something so unbearable
I can't just let it go
I feel my heart slowly stopping
I don't know why I feel this way
Starting to slowly decay
Will I ever make peace with you again
So know this misery
Falls upon me once more
I can't forget it
Until I ultimately fall
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Never Give Up
The world it seems has betrayed you
No solace or peace enters your heart
You can't believe a word they say
Living your life just isn't meaningful now
Not with the sorrow, the pain
Of an emptiness that shouldn't exist
Never care for what they say
They never really knew
How hard it can be, to lose this battle
A battle with so much more to lose
Despair and misery is in the air
Please don't fall just yet, you gotta stand up
Nothing else matters anymore
Just longing for peace to fill this emptiness
So now remember
As your tears begin to flow
Remember her once more
Not in agony or despair
Anger or misery
But in happiness and love
That she may rest in peace
Never look back on what was wrong
Just hold in your heart the love that never fades
And remember the sweet soft tears
Of the love for one who now rests in peace
Looking down upon you
With a warm smile
Whispering softly,
"I love you!"
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Withered And Weakened
Withered and weakened
Like an old stump slowly decaying
Thoughts all lost, never to be found
No one sees you falling
No one will miss you when you die
Slowly crawling
As a young baby
And now crawling once more
Old and useless
A vicious cry of agony
You're dying, no one cares
Silent screams
Never seen
Eyes staring forward
Never hearing your voice
Broken, shattered
Into an eternal abyss
No one cares
So now,
Withered and weakened
Sitting forgotten
Never wondering
Where you'll end up
As they take your ashes
And let them float
In the dreams of your unseen fate
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A Fake Smile
Walking down the halls
Everything so plastic and fake
Never fitting in, not knowing if it's even worth it
Smiling on the outside
And shattered within
So, just keep walking
Don't stare eye to eye to anyone
Or else they'll know
Just keep smiling
They will never know the difference
They don't even care anyways
Sit down against the wall
A wall of shame and misery
Rest now for a moment
Hide your tears away
What does it matter anyway
Cause nobody really cares
Just keep smiling like nothing is wrong
You've let it in too far, now pick up the pace
Now you can hold it no longer amongst your face
Run away, no prize to find after you lose this race
Keep smiling now, tears silently tingling in your eyes
Allow the small fake happiness to drop from reality
No need to smile anymore
Stare straight ahead and fall down,
Can't even feel the impact
A pity, no one ever cared still
Always regret not to speak out
Now close your mind
Show the sadness in your eyes
While still having that fake smile forever
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Last Bet
Hey, now's the time!
Bring it all out, only one more chance,
To win this game of life.
To win the chance to survive.
So now, begins the test,
Of your courage to overcome fear.
Maybe now you'll get lucky.
Only one more chance to make the last bet!
The choices you make
Reveal endless consequences,
So please, use this advice wisely,
Make sure this is all you got!
Hey, now's the time,
To begin a new life.
Hey, now's the time!
The only chance to survive!
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The Truth Behind A Lie
Subtle arrangements
Made from whispered tones
Lies and betrayals weakening a soul
The posion of all humanity
So now begins the trial
Of the karma holding your down
Like a sick, lonely animal
Nothing to feed off your hunger
A predator being hunted
The hunter never knowing his compassion
Savouring silent screams
Agony and misery has no place here
Forgiving is to be forgotten
A memory violently washed away
A secret message
Unencryptable
The clear water
So tainted wilth filth
Can't see through it all
Never understand why
Truth is just too hard to handle
An answer not wanting to be found
So bury me tonight
I'm not afriad to die
But please, don't ever lie
You can never fly
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I'm Sorry
We both sat alone
Again today, all alone
Can't see eye to eye
I'm sorry it had to be this way
And as I held you one last time
In my warm arms
As I kissed you so briefly
And whispered a silent farewell
Wondering when I'd see you again
I never wanted it this way
I'm sorry for all the things I said
We can never forgive each other now
It's too late, you've left
I sit here now, painfully alone
As time passes by
I long still more and more
My love is burning to let you know
That I'm sorry, I just can't let you go
I never wanted it this way
I'm sorry for all the things I said
We can never forgive each other now
It's too late, you've left
I sit here now, painfully alone
Maybe someday I'll see you again
I hear your name, though I'm sorry
I can't seem to remember your face
Just a sound through soft lips
"Goodbye, I'll miss you,
My friend..."
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Misjudged Reflection
Maybe just like you
I could make all my lies true
I might point my finger at you
And make everything wrong in what I do
Please, just take it somewhere else
I don't need all of this from something untrue
Look in your reflection again
Try not to look away as your worst nightmare
Betrays upon you once again
You can't back it all up
Shoving your rumours into society
Misleading something that was never
To be along the line
Gradually slipping and falling
Soon, we will be coming for you
Quit trying to make me believe
I laugh at you behind your back
I do all the things against myself
And I feel good about these lies
Now you've finally crossed the line
So now look upon the darkened reflection
No I'm sorry, it's not a trick
What you see is from what you did
A dark image stained deep with red
My life corrupted by your image
If I fall, into something I never deserved
Well just know one thing
I'm gonna take you down with me
I don't wanna fall down
No I'm sorry,
Yes, I know, Life isn't fair
I'm just gonna knock you down
Let you figure it out on your own
Fallen into despair of the doom you created
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Faceless Argument
Sitting all alone
Dark walls consuming me inside
What have I done to deserve this
I took you for a fool
Dressed up in make believe
Illusioned to a lie
Freedom isn't free, you say
Nothing can save me, you scream
So will I now just die
Alone with nothing to comfort me
You really think I'll allow you to beat me
You must be so blind
Over and over again
We fight, we die a little more inside
Ripped apart from our pointless views
Never to think closer
Never to find our solution
To this faceless argument
So now what will you do
I've trapped you inside your nightmares
Were you so confident
Never to think of an alternative plan
I scream now inside your little head
Never trust anyone, my friend
Over and over again
We fight, we die a little more inside
Ripped apart from our pointless views
Never to think closer
Never to find our solution
To this faceless argument
The last corner is drifted upon
The end is within our grasp
To win is to live
To lose is to be lost
I can't believe you were so trusting
A faceless shock as I stabbed you in the back
Letting you fall forever, as I threw you aside
My life is accomplished
You have no use for me anymore
Over and over again (never ending)
We fight, we die a little more inside (bound to die)
Ripped apart from our pointless views (so pointless it seems)
Never to think closer (not to be close)
Never to find our solution (no solution within our grasp)
To this faceless argument
No trust to show (no one to trust)
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Eternal Light, Awakening Darkness
Biting the tongue as it starts to bleed
Holding back your fantasies
Resisting urge, fortifying against temptation
One choice with endless consequences
Harvesting new found joy
Wiping long lost tears away
A form of invincibility
But only last so long
Beginning to feel wasted
Tired and afraid
Lonely, devastated
An open wound with only misery to fill
Remembering past memories
Memories of happiness and comfort
Filling in the blackened void
The symbol that helps you as stress brings you down
The end shall always begin
Day will become night
Twilight between soft whispers
Of promise and tragedy
Of hope and wisdom
Light to darkness
Your soft blanket of thorns
To burden you nevermore
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The Lone Wolf
As past memories flood present seeings
Forget about friendship
Forget about happiness
Forgotten to being an empty shell
As cold eyes stare ahead
A place to call for nothing
An emptiness that just can't fill
Crawled inside your destruction
Bending the truth will not be so easy
Biting bitterness inside, controlling
Dominating
As you lie down and look up
Feeling afriad
And as you stand and look down
Feeling still small and knowing
Nothing to fill your heart, your soul
Why can't it all just end
Inside these walls your demons feast
Forever till there's nothing more
But a numbing sensation of being lost
And something just in your grasp
Never to be touched again
Everything is least expected
Untill nothing is left to the end
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The Man In The Box
As you conjure this courage
Try to forget past worries
As they creep ever so harder upon you
Creating an everlasting burden
Trapping yourself into an unbreakable wall
Seeing slience amongst faded vision
Hearing the thunder of your beating heart
Smiling to yourself as you fool them all with your secrets
You make the move to free your burden
As you have the hundredth time
To find you truly are trapped
Helpless as darkness fills your vision violently
You fall into that familiar cold embrace
Close your eyes
Full with pain
Content that it is now over
Now you open your eyes
Find yourself looking beyond
Regretting all that is nothing
Numbing pleasure fused with agony
Breathe deep this dead air
Sightless eyes starring ever forward
Nothing will come to help you
No one cares about the man in the box
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The Abyss In My Mind
Wavering in the wind, balanced upon the thin thread that is life
The slightest wind, the slightest confliction will cast be down far into the darkness
Like a hurricane, as swift as a knife
I am trapped inside these walls of a building madness
Someday I'll look back upon my wrongs
Become a symbol of all that sought revenge
Somewhere I'll find a place to belong
Put everything that was nothing into a forgotten abyss
When I dreamt of a meaning
It soon found me without warning
A soul for one, a life for none
Missed by nothing to no one
Someday I'll look back upon my wrongs
Become a symbol of all that sought revenge
Somewhere I'll find a place to belong
Put everything that was nothing into a forgotten abyss
A light so bright
I cannot close my eyes
This force ever so frightening, casted into the night
I can only weep and cry
For all that was forgotten
Someday I'll look back upon my wrongs
Become a symbol of all that sought revenge
Somewhere I'll find a place to belong
Put everything that was nothing into a forgotten abyss
As darkness envelopes my mind
Extracts my soul, my heart
Will I ever know how to find
As the moon and sun collides
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My Numbing Peacewish
Flipping through the pages
My life, my world
Raging on about everything
And of nothing
Too hurt to cry
So alone inside
And I don't even know why
I smile on the outside
Never to show the true mystery of myself
I say nothings wrong
That I'm alright
Then I cry inside as I close my eyes
Sometimes I feel so numb
Like nothing can save me
No laughing, crying
Or anything of emotion
Just an empty shell
Awaiting as the cracks become visible
And then soon breaks
As my life shatters so unreal
I smile on the outside
Never to show the true mystery of myself
I say nothings wrong
That I'm alright
Then I cry inside as I close my eyes
It's dark, I can't see anything
*whisered* I open my eyes
Still nothing
*whispered* What can I do to turn back time
Why does it all feel so painless
*whispered* So hopeless, nothing felt
When can it all end
*whispered* Why won't the darkness remove it all
And let me remain limp and still
*whispered* In peace and nothing else
I smile on the outside
Never to show the true mystery of myself
I say nothings wrong
That I'm alright
I smile on the outside
Never to show the true mystery of myself
I say nothings wrong
That I'm alright
Then I cry inside as I close my eyes...
I cry inside as I close my eyes...
I cry inside as I close my eyes...
as I close my eyes...
close my eyes
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As Time Fades Away
I sit here alone
Lost in a slumber of dreams
Thinking about what I did
And what I could've done
So long in my past as time fades away
It feels so long ago
Yet so near
I never realized how long it has really been
As the hours turn into days
the days into weeks
the weeks into years
on and on
so very long ago
I remember my memories
so vividly clear
I can still feel your touch
I can still hear your name
Through my silent tears
Now I awake from it all
To find nothing will comfort me
I still think of you
as time fades away
and this darkness surrounds me
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This Ancient Lie
Terror-filled hearts pierced by agony
The flow of thousands of screams ring in my ears
I'm losing all control of this madness
The seconds drop by as fast as my beating heart dies
Within my world, beyond the years
Passing by my dried up tears
Can you turn back time?
Correct all wrongs of my humankind
Can you save my soul tonight?
From being forever lost in the
Wrongs of our past
From forever being a victim
Of this ancient lie
Together we die
All hope and faith drained from our souls
Fear and death plague the air
Choking belief
Restraining our freedom
Forever to be lost in a gutter of nothing
And forever in the hands of these men of power
Can you turn back time?
Correct all wrongs of my humankind
Can you save us tonight?
From being forever lost in the
Wrongs of our time
From forever being a victim
Of this ancient lie
You can never know the pain strickening
Our hearts, our minds
Your gods can't save you tonight
Your heart is bound to die
All because of this ancient lie
Don't fear so soon yet
Stand up and fight this threat
Raise your fists in the air
Strike through the decaying corruption
Bury these ancient wrongs
This world shall begin anew
Our souls will be free, our hearts whole
Now that we have rid ourselves
Of this forgotten ancient lie
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The Plague Of Pain
It's all over
You've died inside
Nothing can save you
This plague has no cure
Infectious
Beneath your surface
Nothing
More lives inside
A mere scratch
A broken memory
Tainted with everything
You try to hold
Live
To only breath
Dying more and more
Inside everyday
A thought
More comforting then reasoned
To die
And never feel the pain of this
Emptyness
Each day
Torments you more
As you see through dimly lit eyes
And breath through decaying lips
Feel numb, Touch nothing
Become unawares of your surroundings
People scream at you
Hit you, yet you hear nothing
Feel nothing
Except a numb inner something
That got left behind
Inside your soul
Forever
Only lit
For only a moment
Then dies just as quickly
As you look in her eyes
And reflect your pain
And silently whisper
I wish it would all just go away
This post has been edited by Morzan202: 07 August 2007 - 04:44 PM
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